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The half-forgotten
Other half of my short life In short story form
Index
Conflict is Born Taped Shut Vanishes Again Necks Would Snap Brilliance, Ego, and Something The Mute's Symphony Then There's Nothing My Hero Woman Along the Bottom Cannibal Mafia Swim There Other Humans Inside I'm Awake! Perdi's Pigeon Mind Control Mechanism One Last Time Naturally Buoyant Jerky, but Fun Powers Over Gravity Tolerance to Water What's Your Name Little Girl? Story Straight Lobotomy Manta Army My True Parents We Will Attack...YOU! Ass End of the Beach My Check Remember No More Good Day for a Walk Xian Free Ticket Incoming! Ceiling in the Sky Getting Stuck The Panel The Sun is Shining Brightly White Trash Destination What Can Not Be Seen It Just Floats Natural Phenomenon Gooping Humanoids Icy Mountainside Since I Left There is no Hand Skin Them and Kill Them Back on the Concrete Enjoying the Flight Shorten My Name After Me In the Heart of Mexico Execute Him Playground in the Sky Quite Tasty Deadliest Opponent Yet Her Second Choice Tape Measure Stolen Car Assignment on Earth Tinge of Agoraphobia Juggling Lives Living a Dream Pyrotechnics Bloody Water Darkness Forever Missed the Silence New Year's Apocalypse Rooftop Shortcut Hit You in the Face 13 Cent Fish Like Shit? No Limit to the Fall Lunch With Tom We Pulled Away Billy Four Arms Pulling Wagon Skateboard Freeway Zombie World Laugh Our Brains Out The Shaft Fireplace Fireplace Fireplace Throwing Silverware Clay Face Noone Said Anything Never Flown Public Seat in Front Disinterestedly Watching Everlaster Into the Night Slime Pool Voice of Honey Fighting On and On Closed Eyes Desert Railroad Restore the Land Jesus Chariot Dream Drivel My Abu Is Wet Cut Through My Hands Expected Them To Be Blue Parent At This Stage After They Die None Of Your Business Anniversary of What? Think You Went Somewhere Complete the Conversion Ready For Action Nazi Frisbee Be With Her Invisible Demon Fire Sheets of Paper Pirated Cola Cans I Do Some Pushups The Power Source Was Taken Pull Off Their Socks I'm No Choir Boy In the Basement Brown Bag Do Something It's a Bathroom Stagefright Turned and Kept Walking How Precious Three Games At Once Spoil My Chances Dark Darband Shirak Lie Here and Watch TV Two Was Bad Number 58 Here Dark Red Chance to Work For Buy Low, Sell High Size of That Ant Blow Yourself Away Pixelated Lag The Death Of Us Who is Sera Do This Systematically One Sees, One Hears, One Feels Roll On Over Hold You Forever Favorite Spot to Stand What the Hell? A Being of Pure Energy Put It Out Now And This? Get In Line Loop Your Arms Around Come On In Argh! We're Screwed! To the Castle The Last Will Have to Wait Not Potent Enough I'll See You Later Took You a Long Time The Reeskers Known the Longest Most Frustrating Moment Money Flying Everywhere Cleansed of Christianity Let Me Live This My Father's Kingdom Why People Race the Water If We Ever Could Being All Here The Music, I Mean Starts Over Tappan Tallas Tax Comprehend Its Meaning Concert Shirt Noone Ever Cancels Switch Kisser Jennifer v.123 We Can Afford It They Were Both Full Nothing Can Stop Us Now Eat With Us Great Graphics, Too! What AM I Doing Here? I Just Fake It Ravaged By War Mmm...Minty! Like This Piece of Trash This Pointless Game Give You a Call Later Future In Computers Bandaged Up and Rested I'm a Spy Block G6 Oh Everything Will Be Okay This Is Not a Pretzel Petted the Cat Affectionately A Little Confused Get Married? Bicentennial Quarter Had a Gun Rooting Me On Temporal Engineering About To Close Assassin's Death Bed I Saw Her Leave Inside Do Crazy Things Really Steep Slopes Get Some Stitches The Twisting Path My Big Lunch Walking Home Snow-Covered Mountain As Fast As Possible Snake Course Devious Unpredictable All the Busses Leaving I've Been Waiting Back Into My Car Stone Basement Clasp Them In Comfort I Gotcha Huge Party Wait Until Robert Sees This Continue the Human Race Desolation Motif The Sun Got Me Lit Up Bright Pitch Black Everywhere I Hear Their Voices Leather Armor Back Road A Green Mist Permeated On Rollerblades Swinging Them Around Future Past Experience Hold Hands as We Run The Question Epileptic Is Right My Old House Large Slope Abandoned Construction Site Deserted Desert Mall Into Darkness Garden Party River Boat Jump a Fence I Keep Running Marching With an Army Snipers In the Trees Park My Car Tropical Ruins Sunken City Outside of Roof Crawl Up the Stairs Aliens in the Chaos Gasping For Air The Cliff Face Bat-like Things Nighttime Highway Eerie Woods Pink Town Strange Woods Escape the Blob A Secret Passage Third Door Giant Boulder |
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
The Sun is Shining Brightly 12-19-2002 I'm at a university building or something, on a concrete patio with steps descending down into a green area. It's past midnight, but there are people about. The sun is shining brightly. No wonder it's dark in the mornings, I think to myself. I decide to walk home, since it's been since childhood that I traveled this town on foot. Nonetheless, I follow some main roads at an alarming pace. I get off an exit ramp that empties right out into a dangerous intersection (which happens to be an on-ramp), but then veer left into a dirt valley, where there's a smaller road for bicycles only. One goes by, with rider. I mentally note that I haven't been here since I rode my bike here with my dad when I was a kid. It's forest here, but it's also winter, for all the leaves are long gone, even from the ground. There's a small rise in the ground surrounded by a wooden fence. A small path leads around it. I see a woman down it, stretching or something. I have a flashback of falling on the other side of that fence and calling to my dad for help, as if I couldn't get back over it or around it. I wonder why I might have acted that way, and decide to walk around to see. I run into a steep hill, though, with dry bush-like trees growing out of it, and lots of tree roots sticking out of the dry dirt. I feel like I climbed up here just a few seconds ago. Maybe I did. A little kid, scuttles down my left side, riding the steep slope with the heels of his tennis shoes, grabbing onto twigs on his way down. Same age as I would've been when I would've played here. I'm actually amazed that children still play here, that it's still a safe neighborhood. I try to climb up, but I'm too big, and the bushes are in my way. I head to the right a little, where there are fewer bushes are more roots to grab onto. My hands find the top, corner-like ledge, and I hoist myself up. A little girl is there, poking at a turtle. The turtle doesn't have a shell, however. Instead, it's in a soft tube that it can roll into a ball. Nearby is a larger tube that the turtle apparently wants to make its home, but a hamster is inside of it. The turtle keeps rolling into the tube, and the hamster keeps wrestling with it until the turtle rolls out. I'm unsure of who I should be rooting for in this battle, and so I leave it. It's still the middle of the night, and yet still the sun is shining brightly. I go to a party store, the only thing that's open, someplace back on that campus. It's a small store, and I walk around it a few times before I pick something up. I don't remember what it is, but it's not even food. I'm next in line at the counter when three girls pull up behind me. One of them makes a comment to the effect that they're about to get hit on, because the man behind the counter is Mexican. I get to the counter and the guy starts asking me all sorts of random questions...and here I was planning on just giving him my $3.13 (for that's what my item cost) and getting out of there. The questions were of the telemarketing type...invasive and impertinent. Finally he rings up my $3.13 item. He wants me to count the money out on the counter, so I confidently put the bills down one at a time. However, when I put the first bill down, it's a 5-dollar bill, not a 1-dollar bill. Nonetheless, I put the rest down, counting, "1, 2, 3, 4...times 5...is 20. So you owe me $1.69 in change." That's what I say as my mind somehow goes from 20 bucks to 5 bucks, and incorrectly subtracts $3.13 from $5.00. I realize this and try to correct myself, however, to "No, $1.67." The guy happily rings it up. I know it's not right, but I don't care anymore. He gets out an application-type sheet of paper, wanting me to sign it. It has all the questions he asked me on it, with my answers, all in pencil. I didn't even notice him writing this all down, either. Pretty well done, too. He asks me a question about food, to which my answer ends in the word, "Mexican," but since it was at the end of my sentence, it's moreso muttered. He takes slight offense, mocking the verbal tone I gave the word "Mexican." It doesn't phase me, however, and I don't feel like explaining myself. Instead I just perk up my tone and say, "I like Indian, Mexican..." and leave with my item. It's the middle of the night. I should be sleeping. But the sun is shining brightly.
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